In My Crazy Head
I have so much going on in my head at any given time (most of it relates to the role I “play” in this silly ole’ life of mine).
Generic stuff as follows...
I should have dressed up more, I need new (fill in the blank), my hair doesn't look right- why do I feel like a scrub all the time? I should do something about it. What? Oh well, I don't care. I'm going to go broke trying to make myself look better for people who love me for me and those who don't- well who cares what they think anyway (obviously I do- but I don't want to). I try hard to craft a casual but somewhat stylish look on a budget but sometimes I dream of clothing that is more trendy and feminine, that requires dry-cleaning/ironing, that looks striking. But who has the money for dry-cleaning on a weekly basis and ironing is not something I want to make time for- I don’t like to iron. Maybe that is why I’m always messing with my hair? I like to make a statement with my appearance besides I’m taking it easy today. That and I like to be unpredictable- the whole day-in/day-out monotony kills me.
Other stuff...
Laughter- I love laughter (but not my own). Why do I have to make that odd sound when I start laughing loudly? I'm croaking. Well I suppose it is better than farting. You know how some people fart when the laugh or sneeze- I suppose that could happen.
Other other stuff...
What time is it? Am I way behind the schedule? Where's my internal clock? Why don't I have one? I totally do not have a feeling for how much time passes in any given circumstances.
Then there's the serious stuff...
Mom stuff, Wife stuff, Life as a Christian stuff, Time Management stuff, Homeowner stuff, Money stuff, Work stuff, Church stuff...
And that is just a little of what goes on in my head, I can spend seconds/minutes/hours reflecting on all the aspects of my life and the lives of those I care about. I'm always evaluating and learning- I do not lead a life unexamined by any means that is for sure. Does that make me sick? maybe.
What goes on in your head? Tag you're it.
posted by Krit @ Monday, November 07, 2005
3 Comments:
Inside my head at any given moment...what day is this? Did I have any homework this week? If so, did I do it? What time is it? Is there enough time to finish my work today? I wonder what my mom is doing right now? Did I put that laundry in the dryer? I wonder if I'll have kids before I'm 40? Am I a good wife? Am I a good friend? I wish I was more "girly". Wait a minute...no I don't. Did I pay the electric bill? I hope I actually like teaching when I graduate. Will I EVER graduate? I hope my car starts today. I wonder if I'll have grocery money this month. I can't wait for Monday Night Football. HOW am I going to cook a turkey for Thanksgiving? What if it sucks?!? I wonder if my dogs are bored right now. I hope Connor is having a good day. What day is this?
See Krit, you're not alone. My brain goes 1000 miles an hour all day (and night). :) Hope my dysfunctional, irrational way of thinking makes you feel better.
Pixie, it does make me feel better.
On homework- do you go all out or just go for the passing grade? I drove myself crazy trying to be the perfect student in school. I wonder if I could try for the passing grade? I'm always afraid I'll start sliding and then lose all control. That goes for most things, not just homework. I think it is AWESOME that you're in school and yes you will finish.
You'll have kids when the time is right, you have this young spirit that makes me believe you'd be a great Mom at any age.
I forgot to pay a bill while I was gone and now I forgot to do it on my lunchbreak. I was so busy "thinkin'" that I wasn't thinkin'. Oh well.
Kidd on 106.1 has a turkey recipe that I'm dying to try- I never jave hosted Thanksgiving (we have the smallest kitchen) but I'd love to see if it is as good as people say. It sounds easy- you pretty much just cook it in a paper bag. There's more to it but that's the gist.
Are you hosting your family's Thanksgiving? That is so exciting!
My mind is always going a million miles a minute and is all over the place. My new obsession is my apartment and how I can make it better. But than all the other stuff pops in my head all the time, like family, are they ok, is everything going well, did Michael get to work on time and safe, bills, what is paid, what is not, how money do I have in the bank, my hair should I cut it, or should I get a perm or leave it alone and on and on and on......
I think we all "think" too much!
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