Class Reunion

Not sure if we will go to my Class Reunion.
People say we should but I'm guessing they don't want to buy the tickets for me sooo... and do I have the time to get everything lined up? Do I have the energy to prepare? Maybe I don't have the self confidence? Or maybe Reunions are just money makers for internet companies now and have gotten crazy out-of-hand expensive. I mean if it were cheaper, I'd go- no doubt.

But it isn't just the cost of the tickets
(almost $200 is alot to me though).
You want to go and look your best right $$$
*new outfit(s) , shoes, make-up, accessories
(what separates us from the animals is our ability to accessorize),
etc, etc. Somethin' worth doin' is worth doin' well.

Now line up a babysitter for two nights in a row.

Rehearse what you're going to say.
Should I go for modesty, try to impress, find a balance?
Keep conversation short and mingle (small talk isn't my fav thing to do)
or try find those few people that you really do want to talk to
and hope for interesting conversation?

Am I prepared to have my feelings hurt?
Women are vicious and tend to be mean-spirited in these situations.
Even a - "wow, you look different" can get under my skin.
You know, when they say it in "that" tone.
Plenty of people I went to school with spoke in that tone.
Not just to me, I had very few problems gettin' along in school,
but just in general.

I do want to SHOW OFF my wonderful husband.
I do want to share the beautiful pictures of my beautiful kids too.
I think I've held up okay so I'm okay there I suppose.

When it comes down to it- I'm trying to do a heartcheck. What are the real reasons to go or not to go? Do I have something to prove and to whom? Is it right to want to see if that girl that spread the rumors about me got fat or ugly? Do I NEED to know if that one jerk ended up miserable? Do I still care? I hope not. Is it worth it? It doesn't seem like it would be but I know some people enjoy themselves. Yet I enjoy myself all the time and it doesn't cost me a ton of money to do it (pluse I chose whom it will be with). Not to mention we had a big class and there were plenty of people I didn't know. Could happen that I might not know many people at all.

Plan B- they are meeting for drinks at the first event.
Should I (and by that I mean we) just show up there?
Would I look cheap? I think everyone else (the paying folks) would be in a different area. If the events were separate expenses, I would just pay for the more casual one and be done with it but the semi-formal event is tied in with it, hence the larger portion of the expenses.

Help. Give me advice but base it on what I'm saying, because there are alot of factors to consider. I really think I don't want to go.