Great Mom

I consider myself a good Mom, mostly because I LOVE my kids and they know it because I show it. I feel like that is one of the most important things I can do as a parent.

Having said that, there is room for improvement. I've already improved on ALOT of things; finding creative ways to get through to them, trying to be a morning person to "set the tone", and saying yes as often as possible (which goes along with saying no when needed). I try to embrace any opportunity for them to have fun (as long as we can afford it and it is reasonable) and I'm raising them in the Church, surrounded by other Christians.

We have also taught them to be good to people (to be better than they have to be), to take care of their stuff, and that there are blessings in good enough. Sometimes trying to do it all right- takes all that I have and there's so much more that I need to improve on... Such as establishing a better bedtime and teaching them to get themselves down at night. We're in the habit (or should I say I'm in the habit) of going to the sleep at the same time. It’s my fault, I like to snuggle and they are so sweet as they fall asleep- I don't want to miss out. Plus it forces me to go to sleep and I'd stay up all hours of the night if it were left to me- there just aren't enough hours in the day.

So this all comes down to misunderstanding how the registration thing goes for Kindergarten. Hey this is my first time having a child start school but I should have known better. I started filling out the paperwork months ago- I was ahead of the game but... it kept making me sad so I put it off. And then we had a tragedy and then I was barely functioning. It shouldn't be an excuse but honestly, I guess I just didn't want to deal with anything else that would cause an emotional strain. I was in denial about the school thing.

Finally I called them a few weeks ago (the folks at his school) and either I wasn't clear, or they didn't understand, but here I am scrambling to get my son registered LATE. What an impression. My poor kids. Some things I do so well, and something things...

I wanna cry! I'm not ready for all of this.

Today I almost broke-down at his summer camp. That chapter is almost over and I'm not ready for that either. I know that place, he loves that place, and he is treated like a King and has grown in his confidence there... Don't know what to expect from this new situation.

(Sigh) What can you do but deal with it right? At least I made some friends with some of the other Mom's. They seem really cool. My kiddo will fit in for sure- he is so comfortable, he wouldn't even stand close to me (that much I knew would happen but it still made me feel sad). In anycase, it sort-of looks like I might fit in too so I guess I can deal with being the Mom whose kid is trying to not be seen with her.

Strange thing is I thought I'd be a "cool" Mom. Nope.

Now I don't mean the "let your child behave badly Mom", but the Mom that likes to laugh and isn't the "old" Mom. I guess it doesn't matter, you're older than your kids and so you're old in their eyes. Even if you shop in the jr section, try to stay in shape, and have a sense of humor... you're still not cool.